On my window sill, in my living room, I see my New Moon blends lined up. My daily ritual waiting for me. They remind me daily to lean into ritual and its importance. I walk up and run the oils from my wrist to my elbow, my heart meridian. I give thanks, I smile, I take a deep breath and smell the tantalizing aroma. I slow if only for a moment, time freezes. It may seem to take time, but it gives back twice as much. My cup as been filled even just a little before I run out the door.
What I’m finding is that it is one thing to be familiar and know the trendy messages of “how good” self care, daily ritual and filling your cup, is for us. But when you start to actually implement it, its a whole new experience, a richness. I feel it integrating on deeper levels. My capacity is expanding. I’m showing up for people in a bigger and more generous way.
I notice feelings of connectedness to myself. I can hear my intuition more clearly. I can slow down enough to act on it, too. I feel safe and more sovereign as I move through the day. My long to-do list doesn’t nag at me as much. And my inner trust with myself and a higher power have deepened, is deepening.
The last four months of hosing this New Moon circle have been a beautiful time of learning how I can be a host and still hide from you all. That on some level I am still believing that I am not the reason you are coming. “Its the oil blends.” I say to myself. “They want something more. Something familiar.” I convince myself. Its been a quick process of creating my own alignment with what this event is offering. I have add this and that and made it similar to other circles I have been to. I realized I was still worried you would think I am weird and totally out there.
And then I realized through pealing back more layers of hiding, that if I am to do this well. I have to show up as me, authentically me, and offer my gifts. Building trust that I can show up “doing me”, and that is perfectly good enough.
In this learning I am reminded to remind you that we are all gifts! Unique amazing beings. You have a special and beautiful flavor, found no where else. Even though this will be your own growth to believe it to be true, to believe in you, I am just hear to say it is worth it! You may have suppressed that ‘one of a kindness’. You may have lost touch with him or her. But their are still there. And it is TOTALLY worth it to get them back on line, find them and walk through the fear to bring them out.
When we hold back the authentic wholeness of ourselves… well its like forgetting the salt and spices in your dish. Its like throwing a dance party without the music. So let me help you get in touch, turn up the music and toss in the spice. Your spice, that can be Chili Pepper or Tarragon. They all have their place.
As I get ready for this month’s circle I am surprised and not surprised. I am surprised because I have never felt the momentum of building energy on energy. Each New Moon event, we align to our hearts, our inner voice. We clear away energies that do not match us, that we most likely picked up from living our daily lives. We choose words, write sentences and focus our energy in a certain direction, the direction of our goals.
With all this powerful action I am feeling the energies carry me through the month. Energies that were not there before. Like I said I feel connected to myself and my life in a different way, a tangible way. I notice the signs from the Universe and I see myself trusting my inner nudges and guidance.
The oil blend enhances and keeps me close to my intentions, my hearts compass. As I integrate and use this daily ritual I feel the power of the message of my crystal talking in the secret language of my heart.
May’s New Moon approaches and I feel invigorated and excited. If this momentum is a spark that is now smoking and starting to flame, then what will the next month and next moth add to this fire?
I feel a new opportunity opening up to me. A new way of living as a more centered and balanced human being in this chaotic world. I feel the power of Spirit and the effect of when I show up, Spirit shows up 20 times more. As I say Yes, live is saying Yes to me. As I trust and slow and listen the more I am opening the door to more aligned outcomes.
I am learning right along with teaching! Living ritual daily, honors that we are spirit in physical bodies.
~Amber Jane Arquette